Home Sweet Home
I love this house.
I know I complain about it sometimes, but seriously, I love this place.
But, God doesn't always work the way I want Him to!
Daniel and I have been faced with a situation where we may have to move. :-( And my instant gut reaction is I DON'T WANNA!!!!
I am so over moving!! We've lived in three houses in our short 9 years of marriage. I know to some people that's nothing, but I'm not a fan of change, and neither are my kiddos, lol.
So here I sit, worrying, on the verge of tears again because I'm not in control. God is, though. He's telling me, "Time to practice what you preach my child. You know I've got this. You know I'm in control. You've read the verses of my promise to take care of you... embrace it. Let go, and let Me be God."
Ok, letting go. If we are supposed to move, we'll move. You have ALWAYS provided before. Even in this specific area. You've always provided and better home for us right when we needed it. And if Your plan is for us to stay here (which is my prayer!!) then You will provide the way. Letting go, being faithful... hard stuff.
Simple things we take for granted can be taken from us at any moment. House fires, car accidents, power outages, who knows!
We are doing a study at church called, Follow Me. I think I've talked about it before on my blog, but man, every week its practical, life examining, lessons. What are you willing to let go of, to leave, to give up to follow God? If we truly love God, we should be willing to follow Him no matter the cost. No matter what people say about you. No matter what luxuries or comforts you have to give up. Leaving family and friends, leaving a job, maybe even leaving the country. Who knows what God has in store for you... for me. As of right now, I know He wants me here. He's given me several ministry opportunities right here in Ferris. But if He calls me away...am I willing to go? Maybe God is calling us to a new home, am I willing to go? Maybe God is calling me to a new ministry, am I willing to go?
Daniel and I have recently been reading about Aspergers. Its on the Autism Spectrum. We are still in the beginning stages of learning about it, because we see a lot of the traits of it in Bradley. We have been anxiously waiting for a chance to go to Children's and have him tested and observed. But while we wait, we are willing to try things to see how he reacts to them.
To be very honest, I'm having a hard time. I've felt like I'm fighting a battle and no one is on my side. I KNOW that I KNOW there is some thing different with my kiddo. Not anything wrong with him, but something different. It may not be Autism or Aspergers, it may only be his ADHD, and if I"m wrong I'll gladly admit it. But I'd rather pursue this and maybe be totally wrong than to leave it along and never get Brad the help he needs to learn and grow and become the man he is supposed to be.
God created my son. He created my daughters. Exactly the way they are supposed to be. And in that, there are challenges. Maybe things He put in each other them to help them succeed in His ways, but maybe also for Daniel and I to learn from.
I don't know how all of this is going to play out, but I'm trying to practice what I preach and give it all to God. To be so tuned in to Him that I'll know what I'm supposed to do next as soon as He tells me.
So I'm enjoying this home while I've got it. I'm enjoying my son and all his interesting ideas and quirks. I'm enjoying the things I take for granted, and I'm enjoying my time with my God. Who called me to follow Him, and I'm taking it one step at a time. :-)
Candi
I know I complain about it sometimes, but seriously, I love this place.
But, God doesn't always work the way I want Him to!
Daniel and I have been faced with a situation where we may have to move. :-( And my instant gut reaction is I DON'T WANNA!!!!
I am so over moving!! We've lived in three houses in our short 9 years of marriage. I know to some people that's nothing, but I'm not a fan of change, and neither are my kiddos, lol.
So here I sit, worrying, on the verge of tears again because I'm not in control. God is, though. He's telling me, "Time to practice what you preach my child. You know I've got this. You know I'm in control. You've read the verses of my promise to take care of you... embrace it. Let go, and let Me be God."
Ok, letting go. If we are supposed to move, we'll move. You have ALWAYS provided before. Even in this specific area. You've always provided and better home for us right when we needed it. And if Your plan is for us to stay here (which is my prayer!!) then You will provide the way. Letting go, being faithful... hard stuff.
Simple things we take for granted can be taken from us at any moment. House fires, car accidents, power outages, who knows!
We are doing a study at church called, Follow Me. I think I've talked about it before on my blog, but man, every week its practical, life examining, lessons. What are you willing to let go of, to leave, to give up to follow God? If we truly love God, we should be willing to follow Him no matter the cost. No matter what people say about you. No matter what luxuries or comforts you have to give up. Leaving family and friends, leaving a job, maybe even leaving the country. Who knows what God has in store for you... for me. As of right now, I know He wants me here. He's given me several ministry opportunities right here in Ferris. But if He calls me away...am I willing to go? Maybe God is calling us to a new home, am I willing to go? Maybe God is calling me to a new ministry, am I willing to go?
Daniel and I have recently been reading about Aspergers. Its on the Autism Spectrum. We are still in the beginning stages of learning about it, because we see a lot of the traits of it in Bradley. We have been anxiously waiting for a chance to go to Children's and have him tested and observed. But while we wait, we are willing to try things to see how he reacts to them.
To be very honest, I'm having a hard time. I've felt like I'm fighting a battle and no one is on my side. I KNOW that I KNOW there is some thing different with my kiddo. Not anything wrong with him, but something different. It may not be Autism or Aspergers, it may only be his ADHD, and if I"m wrong I'll gladly admit it. But I'd rather pursue this and maybe be totally wrong than to leave it along and never get Brad the help he needs to learn and grow and become the man he is supposed to be.
God created my son. He created my daughters. Exactly the way they are supposed to be. And in that, there are challenges. Maybe things He put in each other them to help them succeed in His ways, but maybe also for Daniel and I to learn from.
I don't know how all of this is going to play out, but I'm trying to practice what I preach and give it all to God. To be so tuned in to Him that I'll know what I'm supposed to do next as soon as He tells me.
So I'm enjoying this home while I've got it. I'm enjoying my son and all his interesting ideas and quirks. I'm enjoying the things I take for granted, and I'm enjoying my time with my God. Who called me to follow Him, and I'm taking it one step at a time. :-)
Candi
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