I am Resolved
How are those resolutions coming?
Did I hit a nerve?
Yeah, I hit that same nerve on myself today. The day started out lazy. My sweet husband has been getting up early with the kids and taking them to school every day (THANK YOU BABE!) while I am left to try and catch a little more shut eye before I start my day. So I rise around 9am, find my husband hanging out, and my two youngest kiddos playing (number 3 has had to stay home from school most of the week due to an annoying fever that kept coming and going!).
I mosey on over to the coffee pot, get it brewing, feed the animals, and start making some breakfast. Regular morning routine, nothing special...
That's the problem. When I started this year out, my routine looked a little different. I got up, got my kiddos ready for school and we were off. When I got home, I started my coffee and sat down and had breakfast with my Father. My Heavenly Father, who waits patiently for me turn my eye toward Him. He was my first priority when I started MY day. I would spend some time writing letters to Him in my prayer journal. Pouring out my heart and my concerns and my thankfulness to Him every morning. Laying down my burdens and putting on my armor. Then I would study and dig into my Bible study. Currently, my Sunday school class is doing a study on the Armor of God by Priscilla Shirer... good stuff yall, hard stuff, real stuff. And then, I would finish out my morning by reading the Word. Keeping up with my Bible reading plan has always been a struggle for me. I always get down on myself when I miss a few days (because.... life) and then I try to catch up to be where I'm supposed to be, and get frustrated and just quit... again.
So here it is, 26 days into the year, and I've already hit the brink of giving up again. Of falling into my pattern of laziness, and making excuse because "Life is really hard right now."
Yeah, life is really really hard right now! All the more reason to spend as much time as I can with my Father, who controls everything in His hands!! Who better to consult with on that major issue I have with my dear friend? Who better to bring my concerns in my marriage to? Who better to cry my tears to when my Autistic son has told me for the hundredth time today, "you hate me!"
My theme for the year is "Simplify." The whole point of this theme is to cut out all the STUFF in my life that is distracting me from my relationship with God. To stop reaching for things that make me feel good, temporarily, and to follow the ministry and to work God has set before me. No longer will I fill my time with "good things", but I will commit myself to the things God has called me to. I have tried to stay faithful in my saying "No", although it has proven to be very hard for me! I always think, "well they need my help! What if it doesn't get done because I didn't help! What is they are going to spend time with me anymore if I don't involve myself in this? What if I miss out on something fun because I didn't go." ( I have serious FOMO people.)
Instead, I need to ask myself, "What if I am taking away from someone else? What if this is something that someone else is supposed to do, loves to do, and I am taking their spot? What if I make myself too busy doing this and I miss something more important to me?"
I think I have shared this before, but did you know that every time you say yes to something, you are saying no to something else?
So, I am not going to sit around and wallow in my "failures." I am going to get right back on that horse and get back to my resolutions. When preparing for this blog post, I found a hymn called I am Resolved, and I want to share the lyrics with you.
I am Resolved
I am resolved no longer to linger, charmed by the world's delight;
things that are higher, things that are nobler, these have allured my sight.
I will hasten to Him, hasten so glad and free;
Jesus, greatest, highest, I will come to Thee.
I am resolved to go to the Savior, leaving my sin and strife;
He is the true one, He is the just one, He has the words of life.
I will hasten to Him, hasten so glad and free;
Jesus, greatest, highest, I will come to Thee.
I am resolved, and who will go with me? Come, friends, without delay;
taught by the Bible, lead by the Spirit, we'll walk in the heavenly way.
I will hasten to Him, hasten so glad and free;
Jesus, greatest, highest, I will come to Thee.
All other goals, resolutions, seem to dim in comparison to my great need for my great God. Let's resolve together to come to Him.
Love yall, Candi
Did I hit a nerve?
Yeah, I hit that same nerve on myself today. The day started out lazy. My sweet husband has been getting up early with the kids and taking them to school every day (THANK YOU BABE!) while I am left to try and catch a little more shut eye before I start my day. So I rise around 9am, find my husband hanging out, and my two youngest kiddos playing (number 3 has had to stay home from school most of the week due to an annoying fever that kept coming and going!).
I mosey on over to the coffee pot, get it brewing, feed the animals, and start making some breakfast. Regular morning routine, nothing special...
That's the problem. When I started this year out, my routine looked a little different. I got up, got my kiddos ready for school and we were off. When I got home, I started my coffee and sat down and had breakfast with my Father. My Heavenly Father, who waits patiently for me turn my eye toward Him. He was my first priority when I started MY day. I would spend some time writing letters to Him in my prayer journal. Pouring out my heart and my concerns and my thankfulness to Him every morning. Laying down my burdens and putting on my armor. Then I would study and dig into my Bible study. Currently, my Sunday school class is doing a study on the Armor of God by Priscilla Shirer... good stuff yall, hard stuff, real stuff. And then, I would finish out my morning by reading the Word. Keeping up with my Bible reading plan has always been a struggle for me. I always get down on myself when I miss a few days (because.... life) and then I try to catch up to be where I'm supposed to be, and get frustrated and just quit... again.
So here it is, 26 days into the year, and I've already hit the brink of giving up again. Of falling into my pattern of laziness, and making excuse because "Life is really hard right now."
Yeah, life is really really hard right now! All the more reason to spend as much time as I can with my Father, who controls everything in His hands!! Who better to consult with on that major issue I have with my dear friend? Who better to bring my concerns in my marriage to? Who better to cry my tears to when my Autistic son has told me for the hundredth time today, "you hate me!"
My theme for the year is "Simplify." The whole point of this theme is to cut out all the STUFF in my life that is distracting me from my relationship with God. To stop reaching for things that make me feel good, temporarily, and to follow the ministry and to work God has set before me. No longer will I fill my time with "good things", but I will commit myself to the things God has called me to. I have tried to stay faithful in my saying "No", although it has proven to be very hard for me! I always think, "well they need my help! What if it doesn't get done because I didn't help! What is they are going to spend time with me anymore if I don't involve myself in this? What if I miss out on something fun because I didn't go." ( I have serious FOMO people.)
Instead, I need to ask myself, "What if I am taking away from someone else? What if this is something that someone else is supposed to do, loves to do, and I am taking their spot? What if I make myself too busy doing this and I miss something more important to me?"
I think I have shared this before, but did you know that every time you say yes to something, you are saying no to something else?
So, I am not going to sit around and wallow in my "failures." I am going to get right back on that horse and get back to my resolutions. When preparing for this blog post, I found a hymn called I am Resolved, and I want to share the lyrics with you.
I am Resolved
I am resolved no longer to linger, charmed by the world's delight;
things that are higher, things that are nobler, these have allured my sight.
I will hasten to Him, hasten so glad and free;
Jesus, greatest, highest, I will come to Thee.
I am resolved to go to the Savior, leaving my sin and strife;
He is the true one, He is the just one, He has the words of life.
I will hasten to Him, hasten so glad and free;
Jesus, greatest, highest, I will come to Thee.
I am resolved, and who will go with me? Come, friends, without delay;
taught by the Bible, lead by the Spirit, we'll walk in the heavenly way.
I will hasten to Him, hasten so glad and free;
Jesus, greatest, highest, I will come to Thee.
All other goals, resolutions, seem to dim in comparison to my great need for my great God. Let's resolve together to come to Him.
Love yall, Candi
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