Be Still
Happy Thursday, y'all! Its Friday Eve which means its the weekend eve! What's been going on in your home this week? We had a little excitement earlier in the week with a suspected snow/freezing temps. We had Monday off (MLK Jr. Day) which made for a very nice 3 day weekend. Especially for me, because I spent my Friday and half of Saturday at a VBS event, which you all know if you read my last blog! So Monday night, because of the expected snow/ice coming in, we had to cancel our normal Monday routine of family night because we weren't sure how the roads were going to be by the time we headed home. Better safe than sorry, right? Our kiddos were bummed bc Family Night is their favorite, so we got to sub our routine with dinner at our very close (relationally and geologically) friends' house! We had a delicious supper with them and the kids played and played. The parents, however, we checking our phones and watching the TV all night waiting for the announcement that our schools would be closed tomorrow and we wouldn't have to call in a night to get ready for school in the morning. The night went on, and I had to make the kids call it a night. We had to get home and in bed in the expectation that we would still have to go to school. The minute we got home, the post came on Facebook.... SNOW DAY TOMORROW! Being the sneaky (yeah right) Mom that I am, I had already put the kids to bed and told them that if we didn't come wake them up for school, they would know its a snow day in the morning! You can imagine their surprise when they woke up Tuesday morning, looked out the window with bright eyes, and saw...... nothing. There was a light dusting of what looked like sleet and not snow, but barely enough for each kiddo to make their own snowball. The roads were icy in a few spots, but not bad enough to be stuck in the house. I am glad the district made the decision the night before, and was better safe than sorry, because it saved us from getting up at 6am just to find out school is cancelled and we can get back to bed.
You can imagine the struggle that came Wednesday morning, however! Yes, we had school, and the temperature was 8 degrees when we got up. It warmed up to 11 by the time we headed out the door. After a 4 day weekend, that was pretty brutal. Lots of messed up routines, lots of unknown, and trying to get back into the swing of things. Lots of excitement, and slight let downs. All packed into just a few days' time!
Wednesday evening we had an early dinner (pancakes, always a winner) and bundled up to head to church. I teach the kids' class on Wednesday night and we just started a new study called "Kingdom Quest." It was only week 2 of the class, but every week I get to hear from these kids about the things they face, the struggles, the battles, and we come up with practical ways we can respond, using the tools God has given us. I love teaching these kids because they are so hungry for knowledge and still so open to sharing. They aren't worried about whether or not they sound cool, or if people think they are weird in our classroom. They can be open and really share their hearts. I love it.
Here is where God spoke to my heart, though. On the way home from dropping off my Goddaughter, it is just a short 5 mins or so back to our house, and a song came on the radio I hadn't heard before. It was by Hilary Scott, so I knew I was going to love it, and I turned it up. The song was called Still.
"I believe that You are God alone, but sometimes I still try to take control.
Cause I get scared when I can't see the end, and all You want from me is to let go.
You're parting waters, making a way for me.
You're moving mountains that I don't even see.
You've answered my prayer before I even speak.
All You need for me is to be still."
Yep. It hit you, too didn't it? WOW!! Right there in the middle of a chaotic week, right in the middle of me struggling with figuring out what to do, what to say, when to move... these words wash over me, and suddenly I see a glimpse of what God has for me.
I don't always have to figure out how to fix the struggle. I don't always have to fight every battle that comes my way. I don't have to spend hours online every night trying to find answers to the dilemma of the day. And I don't have to pick and choose what my job/role is in different areas of my life. That makes it all on me. Its not all on me, I cannot take the credit for the outcome when its been God all along doing the work.
Can I say this again just for my own sake?
IT IS NOT UP TO ME TO FIX THINGS!!
Why can I not get that through my head?
Why do I have such a hard time with being still? Why can't I just bathe all my problems and fears and worries in prayer and leave it to God. Trust me, I know that sometimes HE does call me to do something. And those are the times when I shy away from handling stuff. its when I think I have the solution that I seem to be fearless in the attack. So much dying to my own self needs to happen on the daily, maybe even the hourly, for me to be still.
Be still. He is moving mountains that I can't see. mountain I don't even know are there and that they need to be moved. He is parting the waters when I look at the barrier and figure out how I can find another way around it. What is He saving me from? What do I find myself walking right into? Whatever it is, its not part of His plan for me, and therefore its not okay.
We are memorizing a verse as a church this month, as we do every month, and I am working with the kids on Wednesday night so they can memorize it as well. This months verse is so relatable...
"There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way to death." Proverbs 14:12
My ways, the plans that I spend all night up researching and figuring out, may seem great to me! They may feel like, "this is the thing that is going to finally fix this!" But if I am not praying about it first, or reading about what God's view is on the subject, then its just my way, and its not going to lead me closer to Jesus. Jesus is life, and anything apart from Him is death. So when I look around that sea in front of me a plan our a sailing route, or the hike around the shore to get to my destination, I'm probably not going to encounter the best things along the way. More stumbling blocks, more battles, and more ways for Satan to whisper in my ear and tell me how "I've got this."
I don't have this. I'm not supposed to have this.
I'm supposed to be still.
love y'all, Candi
You can imagine the struggle that came Wednesday morning, however! Yes, we had school, and the temperature was 8 degrees when we got up. It warmed up to 11 by the time we headed out the door. After a 4 day weekend, that was pretty brutal. Lots of messed up routines, lots of unknown, and trying to get back into the swing of things. Lots of excitement, and slight let downs. All packed into just a few days' time!
Wednesday evening we had an early dinner (pancakes, always a winner) and bundled up to head to church. I teach the kids' class on Wednesday night and we just started a new study called "Kingdom Quest." It was only week 2 of the class, but every week I get to hear from these kids about the things they face, the struggles, the battles, and we come up with practical ways we can respond, using the tools God has given us. I love teaching these kids because they are so hungry for knowledge and still so open to sharing. They aren't worried about whether or not they sound cool, or if people think they are weird in our classroom. They can be open and really share their hearts. I love it.
Here is where God spoke to my heart, though. On the way home from dropping off my Goddaughter, it is just a short 5 mins or so back to our house, and a song came on the radio I hadn't heard before. It was by Hilary Scott, so I knew I was going to love it, and I turned it up. The song was called Still.
"I believe that You are God alone, but sometimes I still try to take control.
Cause I get scared when I can't see the end, and all You want from me is to let go.
You're parting waters, making a way for me.
You're moving mountains that I don't even see.
You've answered my prayer before I even speak.
All You need for me is to be still."
Yep. It hit you, too didn't it? WOW!! Right there in the middle of a chaotic week, right in the middle of me struggling with figuring out what to do, what to say, when to move... these words wash over me, and suddenly I see a glimpse of what God has for me.
I don't always have to figure out how to fix the struggle. I don't always have to fight every battle that comes my way. I don't have to spend hours online every night trying to find answers to the dilemma of the day. And I don't have to pick and choose what my job/role is in different areas of my life. That makes it all on me. Its not all on me, I cannot take the credit for the outcome when its been God all along doing the work.
Can I say this again just for my own sake?
IT IS NOT UP TO ME TO FIX THINGS!!
Why can I not get that through my head?
Why do I have such a hard time with being still? Why can't I just bathe all my problems and fears and worries in prayer and leave it to God. Trust me, I know that sometimes HE does call me to do something. And those are the times when I shy away from handling stuff. its when I think I have the solution that I seem to be fearless in the attack. So much dying to my own self needs to happen on the daily, maybe even the hourly, for me to be still.
Be still. He is moving mountains that I can't see. mountain I don't even know are there and that they need to be moved. He is parting the waters when I look at the barrier and figure out how I can find another way around it. What is He saving me from? What do I find myself walking right into? Whatever it is, its not part of His plan for me, and therefore its not okay.
We are memorizing a verse as a church this month, as we do every month, and I am working with the kids on Wednesday night so they can memorize it as well. This months verse is so relatable...
"There is a way that seems right to a man, but its end is the way to death." Proverbs 14:12
My ways, the plans that I spend all night up researching and figuring out, may seem great to me! They may feel like, "this is the thing that is going to finally fix this!" But if I am not praying about it first, or reading about what God's view is on the subject, then its just my way, and its not going to lead me closer to Jesus. Jesus is life, and anything apart from Him is death. So when I look around that sea in front of me a plan our a sailing route, or the hike around the shore to get to my destination, I'm probably not going to encounter the best things along the way. More stumbling blocks, more battles, and more ways for Satan to whisper in my ear and tell me how "I've got this."
I don't have this. I'm not supposed to have this.
I'm supposed to be still.
love y'all, Candi
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