Life keeps on going...
Remember my last post complaining about all the changes going on in my life? Well here we are on the other side, and we've added another one :-)
I'm sure I've already told every person I see, but we are expecting!! I am sooo excited, I love being a mom and I love having babies! Don't worry, I'm not going to turn into Michelle Duggar or anything, but I just am not done with having kids yet. Once this one comes, I may be done. I think Daniel wants me to be done :-) Who knows, we'll see. I am just so thankful that the baby seems to be doing well. We had a situation with Medicaid which prolonged our getting benefits, but I actually recieved my packet today, so I'm one step closer to FINALLY getting to the doctor!! I feel like such a bad mom because I haven't been to a prenatal visit yet, but I can't help it! I wish we had regular insurance! Which brings me to my next topic.
School. I just don't know what to do about this. I have always wanted to be a teacher, but I have always wanted to be a mom, more. I wanted to be a stay at home mom, and I am SO enjoying it. We are surviving on one income, but I can't help but think that I am not doing my part. It could be better if I were working, easier. I could cover insurance for everyone if I got good job. Should I finish my last year of school and go ahead and teach? Should I wait until this baby is starting school? Am I doing this because I want to or because I feel like I have to? Am I a failure if I never finish school? So many questions that have been spinning around in my head since I took a break from school. Do i want to go back? I dunno. I know God has a plan, I just don't know what it is. I'm trying to seek Him while figuring all this out, but I feel like I still don't know what to do.
Speaking of school, my babies started school last week! They are so cute in their uniforms, and they love it! I am so proud of them, we have had no tears, only smiles going into school and coming out. I have already seem them become more independent and responsible (as much as a 3 and 4 year old can be, lol). We've had some set backs, Grace was sick 3 out of the 5 days the first week with tummy issues, and I had to keep Brad home today because of tummy issues... there's nothing like being pregnant and cleaning up throw up to make your day last forever... hopefully it'll be over soon!!!
Also, we finally moved! We got into a bigger house, just in time to find out we were expecting... which is what happend the last time we moved, we found out Grace was coming. Lol, I don't think Daniel is ever going to want to move again, haha. This house is perfect for us, there is enough room for everyone, we are closer to family and friends, and church. Its been great so far, except the stinkin electric bill.... just like most of you, this summer is KILLING us! We are really struggling to afford the higher rent and the electric bill. We have been making it so far, and I just pray that we can continue to pay it and the temps will go down soon, so I don't have to run my air all day every day! Anyone else with me? I'm sure you are!
This summer has been a summer of change. I hate some of it, and LOVE some of it. I miss some of my friendships the way they were before the summer started. And I also love how some of my friendships have grown over the summer. I miss my old house with all the memories and the blue walls and the YARD! But I love that my kids have their own spaces and we have space for the new baby. I miss my Dad and pray for him everyday. He is staying at the hospital in Denver undergoing treatment for his lung cancer. I still have a hard time dealing with that, I don't think I fully have yet. Actually, I think I'm in a bit of denial, I don't want to deal with it. I don't want to think about it. I have enough on my plate... but he's my Dad. My only dad, and I love him so much. I just am still trying to figure all that out.
Needless to say, I'm ready for fall. lol, no more changes! Cool weather! HALLOWEEN! pumpkins, football, orange and yellow, and red, and brown, scarecrows, light sweaters, finding out the sex of the baby! The fair, the zoo, I'm ready for FALL! :-)
love you guys, Candi
I'm sure I've already told every person I see, but we are expecting!! I am sooo excited, I love being a mom and I love having babies! Don't worry, I'm not going to turn into Michelle Duggar or anything, but I just am not done with having kids yet. Once this one comes, I may be done. I think Daniel wants me to be done :-) Who knows, we'll see. I am just so thankful that the baby seems to be doing well. We had a situation with Medicaid which prolonged our getting benefits, but I actually recieved my packet today, so I'm one step closer to FINALLY getting to the doctor!! I feel like such a bad mom because I haven't been to a prenatal visit yet, but I can't help it! I wish we had regular insurance! Which brings me to my next topic.
School. I just don't know what to do about this. I have always wanted to be a teacher, but I have always wanted to be a mom, more. I wanted to be a stay at home mom, and I am SO enjoying it. We are surviving on one income, but I can't help but think that I am not doing my part. It could be better if I were working, easier. I could cover insurance for everyone if I got good job. Should I finish my last year of school and go ahead and teach? Should I wait until this baby is starting school? Am I doing this because I want to or because I feel like I have to? Am I a failure if I never finish school? So many questions that have been spinning around in my head since I took a break from school. Do i want to go back? I dunno. I know God has a plan, I just don't know what it is. I'm trying to seek Him while figuring all this out, but I feel like I still don't know what to do.
Speaking of school, my babies started school last week! They are so cute in their uniforms, and they love it! I am so proud of them, we have had no tears, only smiles going into school and coming out. I have already seem them become more independent and responsible (as much as a 3 and 4 year old can be, lol). We've had some set backs, Grace was sick 3 out of the 5 days the first week with tummy issues, and I had to keep Brad home today because of tummy issues... there's nothing like being pregnant and cleaning up throw up to make your day last forever... hopefully it'll be over soon!!!
Also, we finally moved! We got into a bigger house, just in time to find out we were expecting... which is what happend the last time we moved, we found out Grace was coming. Lol, I don't think Daniel is ever going to want to move again, haha. This house is perfect for us, there is enough room for everyone, we are closer to family and friends, and church. Its been great so far, except the stinkin electric bill.... just like most of you, this summer is KILLING us! We are really struggling to afford the higher rent and the electric bill. We have been making it so far, and I just pray that we can continue to pay it and the temps will go down soon, so I don't have to run my air all day every day! Anyone else with me? I'm sure you are!
This summer has been a summer of change. I hate some of it, and LOVE some of it. I miss some of my friendships the way they were before the summer started. And I also love how some of my friendships have grown over the summer. I miss my old house with all the memories and the blue walls and the YARD! But I love that my kids have their own spaces and we have space for the new baby. I miss my Dad and pray for him everyday. He is staying at the hospital in Denver undergoing treatment for his lung cancer. I still have a hard time dealing with that, I don't think I fully have yet. Actually, I think I'm in a bit of denial, I don't want to deal with it. I don't want to think about it. I have enough on my plate... but he's my Dad. My only dad, and I love him so much. I just am still trying to figure all that out.
Needless to say, I'm ready for fall. lol, no more changes! Cool weather! HALLOWEEN! pumpkins, football, orange and yellow, and red, and brown, scarecrows, light sweaters, finding out the sex of the baby! The fair, the zoo, I'm ready for FALL! :-)
love you guys, Candi
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