This just in...
Hey, this is my first time on here. I realized that facebook doesn't have a place to blog, like myspace did and I missed it so I got me one of these! This week has been... eventful I guess I should say. At the beginning of the week I started potty training my 2 1/2 year old son. We have tried this many times before and he just wasn't getting it, so I thought this time wouldn't be any different... but he caught on! the first day he must have gone in his big boy potty at least 4-5 times. I was so proud! Our new puppy, Bella, even got into the swing of things and actually went outside when I would take her instead of going outside, sniffing around, then coming back in just to go on the carpet. So Tuesday, was a good day. ( My week starts on Tuesday because my husband is home on Mondays, we count that as part of our weekend). Then day two comes around... Bradley wakes up with a fever....NOOO! No potty training went on that day. I was so sad because of how well he did the day before and I wondered if he would forget it all the next day. Well day three comes (Thursday) and Gracie has a fever and Bradley's is coming and going ( by this point his wasn't high at all but he was still acting a little grouchy). So I've got two sick kids, and no potty training going on. Even the dog went back to her old ways. So all day I'm changing diapers, cleaning up after the dog, hydrating children, taking temperatures, giving medicine, holding them, comforting them.... ok now we are on day four of the week (TGIF) and guess is what on my agenda for today. I have to clean the house! We are having a reception at my house on Sat after my graduation (yay!) and today is my last day to get anything done. I am FRUSRATED! On a happier note, no fevers today, normal (although frustraing at times) toddlers, Brad is back on track with the potty training and I am SOO proud of him! Bella is in her cage, lol because I don't want to deal with her messes today.
This doesn't even mention the other struggles I've had this week. I am frustrated with Daniel because he never got stamps to send out the invitations for my graduation. So my dad still has o idea that I am graduating tomorrow, and I can't get a hold of him...grrr....
One of my closest and dearest friends told me something on Thursday that doesn't change anything between us, but it is something that I don't agree with. Another one of my dearest friends is going through something, and I don't know what, and I want to be there for her but I don't really know how, which is frustrating to me. My mom told me that she is moving to Colorado at the end of the month... now if we want to get started on the emotions my mom has brought out in me, this is going to be long. I am so mad at her, but I still love her because she is my mom. She divorced my dad and left him for his friend... used to be his best friend. They both moved out of the house that I LOVED and are living in apartments. My dad moved to another city and I hardly get to see him, and he has medical problems that he doesn't manage very well so I am constantly wondering how he is doing because he is all by himself! My mom has just completely separated herself from the role as mom. She made my brother go live with her sister, my aunt, and now she is moving to another state, leaving Paul here with neither parent helping him out... that is wrong. She thinks that since he is 21 now he should be out there living on his own, but that is hard to do when no one has taught you how to do that. He has problems of his own that keeps him from mainting a job and I don't know if I would feel ok with him living on his own. He has more maturing to do. Now... here I am feeling like the only grown up in the family, and suddenly I am in charge of getting everyone together for holidays, for relaying messages.... I am not the mom! She is still my mom, and parenting isn't over when they graduate high school... I think this is what she thinks. I am so frustrated and now she is moving away. I know it seems selfish but I wonder how this is going to affect me. Am I ever going to see my brother? I have no idea where he is, I know where he lives, but he isn't there most of the time. Is my mom going to come back? Are my kids going to have a good relationship with their Nana?
ok, so this is longer than I thought it was going to be and I just unloaded a bunch of stuff... I feel better.... gotta go clean, lol
-Candi
This doesn't even mention the other struggles I've had this week. I am frustrated with Daniel because he never got stamps to send out the invitations for my graduation. So my dad still has o idea that I am graduating tomorrow, and I can't get a hold of him...grrr....
One of my closest and dearest friends told me something on Thursday that doesn't change anything between us, but it is something that I don't agree with. Another one of my dearest friends is going through something, and I don't know what, and I want to be there for her but I don't really know how, which is frustrating to me. My mom told me that she is moving to Colorado at the end of the month... now if we want to get started on the emotions my mom has brought out in me, this is going to be long. I am so mad at her, but I still love her because she is my mom. She divorced my dad and left him for his friend... used to be his best friend. They both moved out of the house that I LOVED and are living in apartments. My dad moved to another city and I hardly get to see him, and he has medical problems that he doesn't manage very well so I am constantly wondering how he is doing because he is all by himself! My mom has just completely separated herself from the role as mom. She made my brother go live with her sister, my aunt, and now she is moving to another state, leaving Paul here with neither parent helping him out... that is wrong. She thinks that since he is 21 now he should be out there living on his own, but that is hard to do when no one has taught you how to do that. He has problems of his own that keeps him from mainting a job and I don't know if I would feel ok with him living on his own. He has more maturing to do. Now... here I am feeling like the only grown up in the family, and suddenly I am in charge of getting everyone together for holidays, for relaying messages.... I am not the mom! She is still my mom, and parenting isn't over when they graduate high school... I think this is what she thinks. I am so frustrated and now she is moving away. I know it seems selfish but I wonder how this is going to affect me. Am I ever going to see my brother? I have no idea where he is, I know where he lives, but he isn't there most of the time. Is my mom going to come back? Are my kids going to have a good relationship with their Nana?
ok, so this is longer than I thought it was going to be and I just unloaded a bunch of stuff... I feel better.... gotta go clean, lol
-Candi
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